Choosing Joy

I stress out way too easily. I get scared that I won’t get to do what I want to in life. I get jealous because it seems like everyone I know is getting the thing that I want most in life. I feel like I have to watch every step I take or else I’ll disappoint everyone. I sit in the corner shutting myself out, closing myself off, hating myself and hating my life. I want to go stand out in the middle of nowhere and scream....................

Truth is, I’ve lost my zeal for life. I used to be such a dreamer. I used to know exactly what I wanted to do in life. I used to be excited about what life would bring. Now I’m lost and confused and scared.

I started settling for smaller dreams, saying “IF that happens great, but I’d be okay with just doing this.” I’ve been ignoring the cry deep inside for something bigger.

I’ve lost sight of what God thinks of me. I’ve let Satan’s lies take control of my life. The thing is, Satan doesn’t waste his time on just anyone! Yes, I did let myself slip and give him a foothold, but the fact he is attacking me so much means that he’s scared of what I’m capable of! Satan doesn’t want me to dream. He doesn’t want me to be confident. He doesn’t wanting me living out my God given, world changing purpose. He wants me to cower back in fear, hating myself and not doing anything with my life. And, you know what?! I’m sick of it! I’m ready to take my life back! I’m going to wake up each morning and decide to make it a good day!

God’s plans for me are perfect! His timing is perfect! He gave me my desires and passions for a reason! He will fulfill them! I just have to stick it out, do the things He is calling me to do, and, most important, learn to CHOOSE JOY AND BE FREE!

"Weeping may endure for a night, But a shout of joy comes in the morning." Psalm 30:5

Keep Dreaming

~Tierra Rose