I started off this year with so many goals that I planned to have accomplished my this summer........ They aren't going to happen!
I wanted to be moved and doing life on my own by my 22nd birthday. My birthday is towards the end of July. Now, I'm not saying that things can't change quickly, I just don't see it happening.
To be perfectly honest with you, I have been having a hard time trusting in God's timing lately. I don't understand why I am where I am in life.So many of my friends are in very different seasons in life.
It makes me feel lesser than. Like I am going through this season alone and watching every one else pass me on the highway on life, getting to where I want to be. I feel like I'm slacking; not doing the best I could be. Like time is slipping through my fingers and I won't have much left to accomplish the things I want to in life. I know I'm still "young" but, more often than not, I feel below average for a woman in my early 20s.
I know God's timing is perfect and that He has plans for my life that are beyond my wildest dreams, I know it, but I don't believe it like I should. I haven't had blissful peace, peace down to the core of my being, about my future for a long time. I've lost the fire and the passion and the "nothing is going to stop me" attitude that I used to have. I'm stressed. I'm worried. I feel like I'm just spinning my wheels half the time.
I don't know what else to say right now. I'm learning to trust in God's timing and in His plans for me. I'm learning how to hold onto my Heavenly Father's hand and let Him guide me.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and learn not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight. ~Proverbs 3:5-6
"For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord. "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future." ~Jeremiah 29:11
He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end. ~Ecclesiastes 3:11
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